You Want it Now. But You Can't Have it Now. (Here's Why)

I want a different life than the one I'm currently living.
I want my things right now.
I don't want to keep waiting until forever to "make it".
I want the "make it" to happen right here, right now.

My future depends on my present decisions.
But why can't my present self-benefit from my present decisions? Why must I keep waiting?
It seems very transactional.
I mean it is transactional; you give you receive; you receive you give.
There are exceptions to this law of course- unexpected surprises (the good and not so good), blessings, miracles, magic, and more.

But how long must I wait?
No one can answer that, huh?
Even with perfect planning and strategic execution, no one has a concrete date.
Astronauts can time the exact landing of a rocket in outer space.
A mother can tell you exactly what her baby needs in the wee hours of the night.
A doctor can predict the length of time on someone's life after a terminal illness diagnosis (although that person has been living, obliviously, with said illness for years).
Yet no one can quantify with a date, when I will get my things, when you will get your things?

Feels like I'm shooting my shot amongst an empty galaxy hoping and praying to catch the manifestation train.
Wait you're aware of the manifestation train??
Not really, I heard about it, but I wouldn't say I know about it.
Ahh, I see.
Well, the manifestation train is invisible to quitters, those who never attempt, and naysayers. It's simply the compound effect of aligned decisions stacking over time.

But I am none of those things, why can't I see the manifestation train?
Well, it's not something you see, it doesn't have an arrival time, it's just flowing at different speeds for different people.

You don't see it first; you participate in it first.

And what does the manifestation train promise?
It promises all of the things you want and desire so badly without a made-up time attached to it.
But only if you're willing to become the person who can sustain those things.
As it doesn't promise comfort, instead it promises results for the version of you who earns them.

You just have to trust the process, even though you've never seen or experienced it yourself. You have to fall back with your eyes closed knowing you will be caught.
This is the most difficult part of the process.
Most quit, become naysayers, and even begin acting against their own good will out of spite or feeling entitled.

When you aren't on the train, it feels so foreign.
When you take steps toward the train, it feels like its moving away as you walk closer when you listen to others and assume their experience will mirror yours.
But when you arrive, it happens instantly.
Right after you do one thing, and one thing only.
You DECIDE to step on the train, refusing to look back.
Not emotionally. Not temporarily. But in your actions, which is your behavior backing that decision.

And when you do, the doors close, you receive instructions, and you take action.

You trust that the manifestation train will take you to your desired destination, you trust the process.

Sure, you may look up and question but keep the questioning brief because once you drift away from trusting the process and comparing your life the train will drop you off in the middle of nowhere, further away from where you got on.

Okay so in theory this sounds good, trust the process, but what does trusting the process mean?

For me trusting the process has meant detaching my sense of accomplishment, self-worth, and productivity to outcomes. And attaching it to whether I showed up and executed.
Trusting the process means I measure my life by effort and consistency, not immediate results. No longer will I negotiate with the work just because the results are late.
I am only focusing on improving myself and what I can actually control.

According to data putting out 91 YouTube videos in 91 days should warrant a surge in subscribers and monetization, right? It's just that 91 videos do not mean 91 resonating videos, I've practiced 91 days in a row but video 1-65 look and sound nothing like video 85-91.
So why am I still going when the results don't match my effort?
Well, I trust the process, which is for me to improve my public speaking skills, hone my message, practice expanding my capacity for visibility, while I build in public, and craft my genius. And let me be clear, the goal was never just the vanity results, but more so who I am becoming in the process.

You can't rush what isn't yours yet. But you can become the person it belongs to. This isn't you being denied, it's you being developed. Also note, if it's yours, you'll get it.
In the meantime, use your time more wisely. Being upset and questioning how long this will take versus taking action is costing you more.
It's time to reframe our questions, instead ask, how can you improve.
Be mindful that it's not always about you doing more or becoming more, things are seasonal, you may be ahead, you may be in the wrong location, only experimentation can help you to level up.
My decision to get on the manifestation train and write 50 newsletters in the last year without letting a week pass by that someone, even when it was just my sister and parents, get a newsletter from me has changed my life.
My decision to walk no less than 10,000 steps starting January 6, 2025, has changed my life.
My decision to alternate day fast for 223 days in 2025, has changed my life.
Recording, Editing, and Uploading videos to YouTube every single day, has changed my life.
And so many other personal decisions that I've made in the last year, are changing my life.
I am not in a race, and neither should you.
The growth from choosing on a daily basis a decision that you benefit from both now and in the future is priceless.
And you're 100% correct, you can plan and strategically execute to perfection, but even in the words of the great Andre 3000.

"You can plan a pretty picnic, but you can't predict the weather".

Sidenote: The train you want to be on is not coming to get you, remember its invisible to quitters, naysayers, and the unconscious. So, take action or stay where you are. Just remember whether you realize it or not, you're already on a train. You just may not like where its headed. I didn't like where I was headed, so I got off with the quickness (my awareness) and made and am still making new decisions while seated in first class of the manifestation WHILE taking massive action train.

As we all navigate this reality on different levels and paths I want to leave you with one very important reminder. You are designing your life with your beliefs, actions, and aura every single moment you have breath.

Are you designing something beautiful on the manifestation train OR are you still going to wait for it to come pick you up while you stay the same?

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Peace Out. Peace In.

-Spivey J.